My So Called Polyam Life

Most monos who find out I am polyam exclaim "I could never do that! I would get jealous!" Well here is a spoiler for you: You can be polyam and deal with jealousy. Wanna know how I know this?  Cause I can be one jealous bitch sometimes. My brain is a real asshat. I was told by an ex one time that I was bad at polyam because I get jealous. Kinda an asshole, weren't they? There is a reason they are an ex. Anyway, I digressed real fast there. I am a big fan of imagery. I imagine my jealousy as a dragon. His name is Seymour. Seymour starts out small and will grow bigger and scarier the bigger Meet Seymour!  my jealousy gets. If I don't keep it in check, he weighs me down and even moving is a challenge. He makes me grouchy, hostile, and basically a yucky person. Why is that? Because jealousy tends to be based in fear. I am fucking terrified and I am just trying to survive. Jealousy can make us act out irrationally. It can cause us to act and say things we do not ...

I (I am A) am sitting next to my half naked girlfriend, cuddled up in our bed and drinking wine straight from the bottle. My boyfriend is on a date, I think to myself as I take another swig of wine.  This is A "I really wish he had put the nice sheets on the bed for her," I say out loud "I agree" My girlfriend, L, replies.  How in the fuck did I get here? I am an *almost ALMOST* 34 year old gal practicing ethical non-monogamy. Yep, you heard that right. I have multiple romantic partners. It wasn't always this way though. I did years, YEARS, of monogamy and I was fucking shitty at them. I will spare the details (I do not wish to cry tonight). This is Boyfriend B Let us rewind to July of 2015 when I met Boyfriend B. I met him on tinder when my ex and I decided to go on tinder to flirt with people. I was on a mostly mono relationship and wanted to spice things up. Instead, I got a whole new life.  I was attracted to Boyfriend B because it was...