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Family Update

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It has been a minute since I blogged last and I wanted to give a dynamic update as things have shifted in our polycule. Girlfriend A (me!) has moved out of the family home (where I lived with Girlfriend L and Boyfriend J and our combined 6 kids). I now live with boyfriend B with our three children a few minutes away. While the decision to switch up our cohabitation was a hard one to make, we all needed more space. 9 people and five dogs in a 4 bedroom house was starting to wear on us a bit. Our puppers enjoying their new space With this change, we have had to be more mindful of making time to nurture the individual relationships throughout the polycule. When a shift occurs like this in a 'cule, it can be easy to drift apart. That has been a fear of everyone in the 'cule so we have been very mindful to keep our weekly family traditions alive. We still have #wastedwednesday dinners and soaking sunday. These two weekly rituals allow us to stay connected and come together as ...
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But what about jealousy?

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Most monos who find out I am polyam exclaim "I could never do that! I would get jealous!" Well here is a spoiler for you: You can be polyam and deal with jealousy. Wanna know how I know this?  Cause I can be one jealous bitch sometimes. My brain is a real asshat. I was told by an ex one time that I was bad at polyam because I get jealous. Kinda an asshole, weren't they? There is a reason they are an ex. Anyway, I digressed real fast there. I am a big fan of imagery. I imagine my jealousy as a dragon. His name is Seymour. Seymour starts out small and will grow bigger and scarier the bigger Meet Seymour!  my jealousy gets. If I don't keep it in check, he weighs me down and even moving is a challenge. He makes me grouchy, hostile, and basically a yucky person. Why is that? Because jealousy tends to be based in fear. I am fucking terrified and I am just trying to survive. Jealousy can make us act out irrationally. It can cause us to act and say things we do not ...
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How I got here

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I (I am A) am sitting next to my half naked girlfriend, cuddled up in our bed and drinking wine straight from the bottle. My boyfriend is on a date, I think to myself as I take another swig of wine.  This is A "I really wish he had put the nice sheets on the bed for her," I say out loud "I agree" My girlfriend, L, replies.  How in the fuck did I get here? I am an *almost ALMOST* 34 year old gal practicing ethical non-monogamy. Yep, you heard that right. I have multiple romantic partners. It wasn't always this way though. I did years, YEARS, of monogamy and I was fucking shitty at them. I will spare the details (I do not wish to cry tonight). This is Boyfriend B Let us rewind to July of 2015 when I met Boyfriend B. I met him on tinder when my ex and I decided to go on tinder to flirt with people. I was on a mostly mono relationship and wanted to spice things up. Instead, I got a whole new life.  I was attracted to Boyfriend B because it was...
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